Wah Ahmad ah Ahmad, this blog post for you, your slashing yurself is gona leave scars, really, try my style, bang head on table, whack yurself(not too hard lah), or you just really have to laugh, those MOMA jokes, what the hell man Open a can of whoopass and its a new source of energy Oh yeah, comming home is kinda boring(usually) so im usually out, unless if I can't date this girl or that then i'll be slogging at the comp, like at msn kinda thing Besides, slashing the wrist like sooo straight, seems like you do it too many times already, you haven't tried whacking yourself with something right?, oh yeah, you need to laugh like crazy, really man, laugh so much the old void of memories becomes a joke, its not only you man, in truth, lots of other people have these kind of problem, the main thing is that, YOU BEAT ALL OF THEM!!!, wana know why? cos you don't do drugs, you don't gang, you don't do stupid stuff that poisons your body, you just cut cut cut, its not as bad as alcohol addiction or drugs, though its gona be pretty much messier blah heck the cuts, try something else TRY PLAYING COMPUTER GAMES (ok this is stupid though, n i really dun recomend those who are already game freaks... shesh... they are like... glued to it... worse than alcohol addiction...) You get to interact with people, you can mask your character, you can even ROLE PLAY(play Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Games), then you can throw your other Ahmad self there, n start trying some scuicide stunts or something, of course you don't play till it becomes an addiction, there are plenty of free downloads over the net, and things like yahoo internet games etc, i know... Rune Scape(ok this sounds like centuries old stuff... to some of us..) OH YEAH AHMAD, YOU LIKE TO READ BOOKS!!!, Keep reading man, you are soo melodramatic, thats why you take so many things too seriously, duh, its either too many sad books or something, read happy stuff, Harry Potter, i think he could be like, thinking of ways to kill off Malfoy all the time, but you are like, thinking of ways not to hate other people, gosh i think you are too kind, LOL, yep Ahmad, you are a kind guy who is sincere in things you do, you can make enemies regret to hate you... gosh... hahahaha OK AHMAD, dun blast stuff at yourself, i find it didn't work after a while(people called me siao and shit like that), just be who you are, its ok for all these stupid thoughts to come flooding back, its only that you don't have some higher sentient being you can count on to keep you company all the time, even when you are alone etc... trust me, pray to God, he is always there, (TRUST ME MAN, there is God, and because he knows there are people who are so sincere like you, he presents himself there, he is free, and has all the time to spend with you, he is always there weather you know it or not, weather you are cutting yourself etc, dun worry man) Ok, just remember, you are one blessed guy, you are perfect with sincerity, and God is with you nomatter what! Duh, this goes same for all those people out there who take out the stuff on their enemies etc...